11/27/2017 0 Comments
Ramblings of Life Lessons - when we are going through the learning phase sometimes we don't realize we are learning!
As I reflect on this past year I realized today that I have learned yet another life lesson. It came to me during my daily meditation that I learned a great deal in a short amount of time. It seems as though we are an impatient species. I am anyway. I have had to learn patience and to trust Divine timing and it always seems to work out even better than I had hoped. Divine timing is really amazing and it has brought me to where I am today.
I have experienced so much these past several months but looking back at this year it is even more than I realized. I learned that I can do anything I want. I learned I can trust, let go and let God and it will manifest beautifully. Miracles happen that way, trust and let God handle the situation.
When I was reflecting on this past year, it took me back to where I was this time last year (November 2016). I had a shop/healing center and a small online presence. I worked at my shop and held workshops, meditations, healing appointments after work (I had a day job at that time) and weekends. It was a lot of work running the shop after hours, after working at an 8 hr job each day, but I absolutely loved doing it. At that time I started writing a book on meditation. I had already created several guided meditations and I was always talking to everyone that came into my shop about meditation, so why not write a book? Meditation helped me tremendously, so I knew it could help others. I had no agenda of when or how I would publish the book, although I did speak to some publishing companies to get information of the process and just worked on it when I could. I loved teaching others during the workshops I held. That is when I felt the most joy, seeing people's face light up when they learned something.
I noticed last fall and winter there was a shift. It seemed at the time I was foreseeing the future without really realizing what the future was going to be because I could tell that the space I was in was not permanent and that I would need to find another place before the lease was up in April (2017). I was wanting more than anything to be able to work at my shop and do healing work full time so I put it out to the Universe as something I wanted to manifest.
February 2017 was a when a huge cycle of change came my way. It all began in an instant. My mom was in a car accident and my world changed at that very moment from then on. I had to stop seeing clients and basically close the shop hours for months to help her with her recovery. It was an extremely stressful time but I realized during that time that I was being pushed in a new direction. I quit my day job because of the continued stress but I still felt like I was being guided, Divinely guided. I actually felt at peace when I left that position. During that time my lease was coming due to renew the shop space and I knew right away that I just had to let the shop go during that time. There was no possible way I could look for a new place and try to start over with a new location (that in itself is a huge undertaking). So I turned in my notice and during the craziness of all of my mother's issues, and I closed the shop. There again I felt at peace so I knew that was the right thing to do. For some strange reason during that time, my online presence seemed to grow. I had been doing LIVE and videos for my Facebook page for over a year but something shifted there right in the middle of all the craziness. I was being guided into a new direction and I was following it.
Thank goodness I had crystal energy to help me and I continued to meditate every day, plus I was learning more and more to trust the process.
Once my mom got better and settled I was able to focus on my online presence and start selling the crystals I had in my shop online. I continued to write on my book throughout this time, a chapter here and there, and most of it was Divinely written or guided so it always seemed to flow easily. I decided not to try to find another space for a shop/healing center, I was just going to focus on online sales and distance healing and there again it seemed like the right thing to do.
Sometime in May or June a friend of mine suggested that I create a course and online course because I was always teaching something online anyway. So I started putting together course materials and I signed up for Udemy to host my course there. I was still writing my book and a third project came to me during meditation that I had to start, which I did. So there were three big projects in the works at the same time. I can't give details on the third project yet but soon. I had gone from one stressful time (helping mom, quitting a job and trusting that all will be ok financially, starting online sales) to another stressful times of writing a book, course and third project. I can't seem to do things in small doses. I was flooded with inspiration and ideas and I wanted to do them all. I was continuing my online teaching, sharing, healings, sales and whatever else that came to me at the same time of trying to create three big projects. I was going crazy once again. Thankfully I had my crystals and meditation to fall back on, plus trusting the process. There were times that I was so hard on myself because I started to put deadlines on these projects and I was not meeting them. I learned that I had to let things happen as they should. I was hoping to have the course done within a month and it took five. I was hoping to have the book done sooner, and it took over a year. I had hoped the third project would be completed but it is still in the works. I often times asked the Universe, "why am I doing this?" "why am I working on these three things at once?" I kept getting the answer to "continue, continue." So I did.
Let me tell you I am no technology wizard by any means and that has been a huge part of my learning this year. I would run into technology road blocks often and then I would get frustrated and have to figure things out before I moved on. That was quite often the case with my online business and course creation.
During all this creation madness (it really felt like madness at times) I was building a beautiful online community, and it just seemed to happen on its own. One that comes together during celebrations or challenges or anything in between. I have met and made so many friends from around the world, and that would not have been possible had I stayed contained in my little shop. When things happen just like that, again to me that is Divinely guided.
So here I am, a year later...I just released my course a few weeks ago. It was scary and exciting at the same time to submit the final details and put it out there for the world to see. I wanted something meaningful and beautiful for those who took the course. I wanted them to feel what I put into it. The same goes for the book. I want it to be perfect. I was relieved that I saw the course through completion, because there were times I wasn't sure I could to it but I did. I am finished with my book and just waiting on a few publishing timelines. I am amazed that I completed that too and I am proud of both. I am proud I accomplished what I did. The third project will be finished in Divine time and I am proud of that too! I know now that I had to experience all three at once to see that I have learned a great deal, actually a huge amount about myself and how to do things in a short amount of time.
I told you this would be rambling...
So this year I have learned so much it boggles my mind. I have learned compassion, patience, to trust my intuition and guidance, to trust in the process, to keep boundaries that I feel are important, that I am capable of doing what I set out to do even if I don't know what I am doing, to be kind and gentle to myself, to respect myself, that it is ok to be proud of myself, and a great deal about technology plus so much more.
A year's time is not that long, and I think I learned more this past year than I ever have in that amount of time. Now that I look back at all the experiences, good and challenging, and I had to go through all of it to get to where I am today. Thank you God, Creator, Universe and spirit guides for leading the way, and I am thankful that I trusted and when the direction you led me.